Time has just been marching forward. It doesn’t feel like it, but I can see the evidence of it in my list of blog posts. I don’t know how I managed to make it this far into the year and yet I still feel like I am in a different year.
Today has been a pretty slow day for me. I have been tired all day. I took a nap, but that didn’t help. Had coffee, but that didn’t help. Exercised and that didn’t help either. Made me more tired I think. I am trying to not over-exert myself. I have only had a fullness in my head and some symptoms. My favorite is nausea, of course. Not. I am trying to be mindful of what I do so I don’t aggravate my head. Typing this seems to be the most irritating thing I have done to my head all day.
I am glad I haven’t been feeling the high-level anxiety that I was when I began this countdown. That isn’t to say that I don’t have any anxiety over it or that I never think about it, but it is not affecting my life and that was the goal of this whole thing. To alter my thought patterns so that I could channel my anxiety about this into something positive. It is not a perfect method. I AM NOT A DOCTOR so I can’t say it will work for anyone. I am just sharing my own progress with my own problem.
This is where I had hoped to be at this point, so that means I am moving forward. I may have a few bad days between here and there, but that doesn’t erase progress. I hope that each of us can find a way to conquer even a small fear this year. It’s good to be victorious over something you thought had power over you. With that thought, I will go drink some coffee.
The Life of a Music Monkey 