People seem to have a problem with understanding a few things and I would LOVE to set the record straight (as I see it, so, slightly skewed, I suppose).
If I come to you with a problem, NO MATTER WHAT THE PROBLEM IS, I am probably coming to you because I trust you, I feel safe around you, and I feel you are a soft place to land. I have discovered over the past three years who most of these people are, but every so often one surprises me and I land in a hard, rocky place with no comfort. If I have dared to ask you for advice or insight, it is because you have shown yourself to be a wise person.
I don’t need for you to shame me because I take prescribed meds for any purpose or because I am not following a regimen that your doctor has you on for something similar, but different. I don’t need you to tell me that I am probably blowing it out of proportion or that I shouldn’t be concerned because I don’t really know. Surely I don’t need you to tell me to get a job when you know NOTHIN’ JON SNOW! It never even dawned on you that my doctors don’t think that is a healthy choice. You never considered that my neurologist knows more about my brain than either of us do! You never considered that I was coming to you because I needed you to tell me that it was ok to be scared but that I was surrounded by people who love me and even if my world comes crashing down, you will still be there to comfort me.
I wish I had realized all of this before I began sharing my life with my associates, but I thought we were here to love each other and be understanding of the hearts of one another. Of course there are times when we have to be serious and stern and put a foot down, but not when someone is pouring out their heart. This is a time to listen to what someone is truly saying to you. Often we just need someone to tell us that it is normal to feel sad/weird/upset/angry/resentful in this situation BUT they can leave off why it isn’t right and why you should do better. Give each person time to come to terms with their feelings and then they are better able to listen to HOW to change the behaviour or outcome.
For more than three years I have had to deal with people telling me how to fix a problem that we are just now beginning to understand. There is more than one problem, but one likely inspired the other to come to fruition since there is a genetic link. I have felt like I have lost great chunks of my life (let me remind you that I get his with “oh, I lose my keys too!” and it is SO degrading at this point) and I have had this all but confirmed by one of my neurologists. After testing, we will be sure, but when you see it with your own eyes, it is hard to deny the truth of the matter.
The best part? I have to put on my smile and keep going and at this point suffer in silence because almost nobody actually hears what I am saying. As of two days ago I was medically banned from driving, swimming, taking a shower in the house alone, being by myself, going to the gym, dancing, and anything that could cause harm to myself or others, until further notice. I refuse to tell people why. Why does it matter now? Is it because now you might get a glimpse of what is going on so you can actually believe what I have been saying?
Ya’ll detect some resentment here?
This is the part I have to work on. I can’t live resenting people and their callous words because I know that in reality, they are probably doing the best they can and don’t know how to be any better. Some might even say I am in a position to enlighten people and bring them to a place of understanding hidden illness and how it affects the different facets of a person but I don’t really know how to do that yet. Sometimes I try to explain and I get a mansplaining I won’t soon forget (but luckily I usually do). I am trying to make sure I use these experiences for myself, to thicken my skin and toughen my heart. I cannot let the words of others be the downfall of my spirit.
When someone comes to you for reassurance that the world isn’t caving in on them, don’t use your logic, use your heart. Assure them that you understand how upset they are and love on them. I am NOT saying agree with them or help perpetuate something that is dangerous or unhealthy, just acknowledge their feelings and listen to them. Don’t tell them how this could have been avoided, or how it was when you were in a similar, but different, situation. JUST LISTEN and reassure them that is it ok to be upset but not to take out your feeling on others.
For anyone who can’t seem to put together what I am saying, I will put it in steps for you. When your friend comes to you in emotional distress:
- Ask them if you can get them anything (like water).
- Ask them what is going on, but ONLY if you are willing to actually listen.
- LISTEN actively. Make eye contact, nod in understanding, and if there is something you don’t understand, ask for clarification if it is important to the situation.
- Confirm that you heard what the person is saying and validate that they have feelings concerning whatever it is they came to you about. (This DOES NOT mean you agree with the situation, only that they have feelings about it.)
- Ask if there is anything you can do to help friend get through this situation. Follow through if they ask for something.
- Check on friend in a day or so and see how they are feeling about the situation and maybe this is the time to talk about solutions if they are ready.
I hope this helps us all become better listeners and friend because let’s face it, we aren’t running out of problems anytime soon!
*Note: if you see something you have said or done on this list and feel convicted about it, don’t worry, all of these situations have happened multiple times. Individually, you were only one stone on my chest. Don’t feel bad; do better.